Gramscicle
The best part about Thanksgiving and break: My grandma is doing 300X better! Yes, she may be really depressed from her lack of results, but I can actually understand some of the things she says now! I’m glad the family was all there to see her because i think it will her out of her depression. Especially since we will be together once again in a month!
For y’ens that dont know, my grandma had an aneurysm in her brain a couple years back and while she was in surgery to get it removed, she clotted in her spinal cord causing a stroke. She lost her ability to talk and walk. But, she can walk, and now she can almost talk!
My aunt just died a few years back from a brain tumour so seeing this improvement in her means the world to everyone in my family, especially my father. I get a bit scared sometimes because brain problems run in my family and I feel like I have some block in my mind keeping me from reaching past a certain point. Thats probably just because my intellectual level isn’t there. oh well. I shouldn’t spend time dwelling on it.
I hope everyone had a good thanksgiving break!
My First Party
Yepp, no longer a party virgin!! One of my guys, Tom, took me to Cincinnati for a formal frat party which took place on a river boat from 11pm-2am. Wow, it was beautiful, the music was great, the people were fun, what an experience. Of course, every person there was drunk except for me and Tom, but we still managed to have a great time. I can see why its easy for people to feel like they have to drink every weekend with friends, because it is much more difficult to enjoy yourself with a lot of drunk people if you are sober. People were all over me that i’ve never met before which made me a bit uncomfortable, but oh well. I thought about drinking, but the people sharing our hotel and who were driving brought down huge things of whiskey and vodka, so i figured it would be good for me to be sober and drive us back. Maybe that was just an excuse to say no though.
Tom and I shared a bed, well, kinda. He slept on top of the covers, on the complete edge of the bed. I thought guys that were interested in you were supposed to want to be close to you, but apparently not. I guess i’m just way too forward and sexual for my own good. I didn’t want to have sex with him (being a virgin and proud of it), but what is wrong with cuddling after a long romantic night? In the morning, I laid on him, which made him feel uncomfortable. I messaged him the next day and asked, “does my touchiness make you nervous or are you not interested in me that way?” and he replied, “I’m not used to moving this fast in relationships, or whatever we are.” So, how do i get mr. conservative moving without making him feel uncomfortable? Or, maybe I should be asking, how do i keep myself from making moves on him so he is more comfortable? I have some things to work out. lol
