Sadly, It has come to this…
I think writing down his positive and negative qualities will help convince myself that he isn’t for me. Hopefully. Because I know this list will be completely one sided.
Good Qualities Associated with Him
1. We have more chemistry than I thought was possible for two people to have.
2. He is affectionate.
3. He is very attractive.
Bad Qualities Associated with Him
1. He isn’t that academically intelligent and is on academic probation.
2. He thinks he is the shit. Period.
3. He lies. A Lot.
4. He is extremely selfish.
5. Enjoys making people feel stupid/inferior/like less of a good person.
6. Is hated by all my friends.
7. Doesn’t care about how he affects other people.
8. Has no idea what he wants.
9. He tries to tell everyone that he knows everything in almost every subject, but he really doesn’t.
10. He takes advantage of me and how much I care about him without giving it a second thought.
I think i’m just used to always getting my ways with guys, and this one guy turns me down, so now its driving me absolutely crazy. I have never been turned down before….and it doesn’t feel good. I don’t mean that in a full of myself way. I just usually pick guys I know I have a chance with. I guess I fell for him too fast and forgot to think about what I was getting myself into. But, I need to get over it. There are other interested guys, to whom I owe some attention. I’m actually almost ready to commit to someone. We may not have the same amount of chemistry, but he is such a great person. I’m lucky to have a chance with him.
Men, Parties, and the Combination
I haven’t felt like posting for awhile, so this will be a somewhat choppy and random post.
CHRISTIANITY
My best friend was recently dumped after a three month long relationship. The guy decided that he felt guilty for making out with her and he decided he could no longer be with her. Also, since she believes in evolution and doesn’t follow the bible word for word, he decided they couldn’t work out. Now, I understand why people believe in Christianity, but i wish it didn’t make people so close minded. (I’m not saying all Christians are close-minded either) By deciding you should only be around people who are like-minded, you wont get to experience other aspects of life. How can you be a well-rounded individual? Just because someone doesn’t believe in evolution, doesn’t mean they aren’t a good person or don’t believe in God. I’m really upset for her; she should never have been put through this.
PARTIES
The past two weekends, I have been out until 4am every night. I’ve really enjoyed my time out and about, dancing and meeting new people. I haven’t been drinking, so i’ve been able to help out my friends who were overly intoxicated. Its been a good escape from life and studies. The downside however is the lack of sleep and time for studies. I think, however, that i’ve been doing a really good job keeping up with everything. I would really recommend at least going to one college party in your life; its not just people drinking.
LOVING A NOBODY
I’ve been crazy about a particular guy for months now and I finally ended it today. I am still crazy about him; seeing his facebook status, “had something and now its gone never to return…I know its all my fault,” makes me want to rush to my phone and send him a text. Good thing i deleted all of his messages and his number. lol He told me numerous times that he wanted me and that he cared for me, but in the end, he couldn’t commit. I definitely feel taken advantage of. At the parties though, I’ve been meeting some new guys and exchanging numbers. It really is what opened my eyes to how I really deserve to be treated. Getting at least two numbers a night, I think I do deserve someone who can take care of me the way I would take care of them.
